Current mood:

contemplative

Pin the tail on the donkey
The past few days have been... difficult. Trying to arrange my life into some semblance of order, but random thoughts keep popping up Jack Handey style.

1. Every day clean is a get out of jail free card. (I like this one)
2. I am a control freak.
2a. Some areas of life cannot be controlled, so I make up for it in other areas.
2b. Veganism is for a moral stand, but also a method of control.
3. I am less secure in my masculinity than I thought.
4. The urge to run away is strong.
5. I fear that I may never reach the potential that everyone thinks I have.
6. Regret is a waste of time.
6b. I waste alot of time.
7. I have been neglecting my recovery.
7b. 90% of my problem is lack of due diligence.
8. Lately, I have been very self-centered.

In light of these, I am going back to NA.

And in my head, I just added "... right after..." - NO. Now.